Sneak Peak of My Life Pt.3

           Christina sat down and told me that I had to tell my daddy, no matter how scared I was, and that I was his only baby girl out of 5 other boys and that even if he did get upset, he would still always love me and support me. We sat and talked for a few minutes, me putting it off as long as possible. We went on and on talking about how crazy it was that we were both pregnant at the same time & so was Jessica. Finally I gained the courage and Christina took me right down the road, to my dads front door. I just remember my palms sweating as we walked up the cement walkway. As we approached the red front door, I grabbed Christina's hand hard and attempted to flee, but I gained the courage and opened the screen door and twisted the gold door knob. I opened it up and there my dad sat. Just the same as always in his recliner, smoking a cigarette. I walked over and sat on the arm of the love seat directly in front of him when I told him that I had to tell him something. "What is it", he replied, "Are you in some kind of trouble?". I just knew he thought it was another speeding ticket or driving without a licence. As I mentioned before, I was a wild child and my daddy bought me that car knowing that I didn't have a licence. I only had a permit. (Actually he took me to do my driving test a SEVEN times all together). I replied, "No dad, I've been driving fine, I just have to go take the test to get my licence". He said, "Well, what is it?", sounding and looking concerned. "I'm Pregnant", I told him, looking down at my feet. He went into shock. He said, "PREGNANT!", "What in the hell Juli, what are you gonna do with a baby, you can't even take care of yourself!". I felt sweat start to poor down my face, my arms, my chest, my back. I just jumped up and ran out as fast as I could. Christina, who was on the phone, quickly hung up with whoever she was talking to, to grab me and hug me as tight as she could. I told her what he said and she quickly went inside and I just sat in my dads driveway. A few minutes later, my dad walked out, looking worried, but still walked to me and hugged me and told me that he wasn't mad and that everything was going to be okay. We just hugged and I just cried because I felt that I had disappointed both my parents. Christina got back in the car and she took me back to get my Honda, & i asked her what did she say to my dad to make him tell me it was okay..? She told me that she went in and said, "She is pregnant Kenny, you need to go outside and give her a big hug and tell her everything will be okay". She said that he said, "Well, everything ain't gonna be okay". She continued to tell him, "She doesn't need to hear that, she is going through a lot right now and she needs her daddy, Kenny, she's been with the same boy for 2 or 3 years, it's not like she's hoeing around". She said he just agreed and got up to come get me.  Meanwhile, I was on the phone with Anita, my step-mother. My dad and her were divorced already but she had been there for me since I was 10 months old. She never gave up on me and always gave me encouraging words. She was my 2nd mother. The next day I went back to my moms and she was okay, to my surprise. She told me that she wasn't mad at me and that we would all get through this and we would have a beautiful baby. Neil was so supportive (for the time being), but as we get further along in the story, you might change your opinion about him. My mom set up all my appointments for the Health Department and for the OBGYN. Before I knew it, the months were flying by and my stomach was growing larger everyday. Neil and I started fighting more and more. I was an emotional wreck and he did not like the idea of growing up. His mom always had a drinking problem and didn't have any nice things to say about me while she was drinking but when she was sober, we were best friends. When I hit 5 months, Neil called and seemed intoxicated on something, asking me to come over. So, I get in the car with Jessica and we go to his house. I get there and he is out of his mind, messed up on something. We wound up leaving and a few minutes after Jessica and I got back to Christina's, my phone started blowing up with messages and phone calls from Neil saying that I had stole something of his and was calling me and Jessica horrible names and saying hurtful mean things, so I just told him that I would come get all of my things and leave him. So, Jessica and myself were off again. I got there and he met me at the door screaming and yelling at me. I quickly walked past him, into the house and gathered all my things as quickly as I could. Taking things to my trunk. The entire time Neil just cussed me out the entire time. As I walked out the front door with the last bit of my stuff, including a baby monitor. He was so close to the back of my neck, screaming at me as I walked out the front door. He slung the screen door back open behind me and kept on and on. Finally I had, had enough. I just got hot all over and everything went black. I shoved him as hard as I could back into the doorway and slammed the screen door on him and he came back up and all I remember was fear. "What have I got myself and my baby into?" When he finally got up Jessica was behind me, and thank God for that, because after that, he shoved me as hard as he could and I went falling back, headed for the porch steps. I just knew I was going to fall and that it was going to hurt my baby. Luckily, Jessica caught me and I got my balance. She then, lifted my baby monitor into the air to hit him with it. I grabbed her arm, mid-swing, and told her not to break my baby's stuff on him. I ran to the car and he ran after me. I got in and started the car as fast as i could, but I wasn't fast enough to get the door locked. Neil ran to the door apologizing and saying that he was wrong. I just told him that I had to get away from him, I had serious thinking to do, for my child's and myself, and then with him standing at my open car door I sped off. The rest of the night I stayed with Christina, sulking. Then she told me, don't be mad at him because he was messed up, that wasn't him. He'll be sober and sorry tomorrow. I couldn't believe that he risked hurting our baby. Neither could Jessica and she was letting everyone know it. He called me all that night. I had at least 20 texts and 15 voice mails on my phone, but I ignored him all that night. The next day was our Appointment at the OBGYN and I called him at his friend Austins house and they told me that he was gone. So I went alone. When they put that gel on my stomach, I jumped from the coldness. Then there were the results that I had been waiting on for 5 whole months and it was finally on a screen, moving around everywhere in my stomach. Reality hit, I had a human being that we created growing inside me. Then the nurse found what I was waiting for. "Ma'am, your having a girl". A girl? I could not believe my eyes or ears. We had thought it would be a boy, "Neil Stephen Neibel 3"... But I got my baby and I could not wait to find the perfect name for a perfect little angel. Afterwords, I called Neil and told him and he said that he had been up and ready to go but I never came and got him. When I told him the news, I could hear him telling his mom, step-dad and brother, Brian, "We're having a girl! It's a GIRL", with such excitement in his voice. He insisted that we get together and try to talk through all of our differences and even his mom, bribed me to come. At the, time, I thought Neil and I would last forever. But like i said, I was a child, and I had no idea of what was lying ahead in this journey. I just knew that I wanted the perfect family that I never had..